i feel like my sexuality and gender are things that no one can ever know about because of they did literally 90% of my family would either disown me or just not treat me the same. those who do know try not to talk about it or do things as though they can “fix me.” my dad just wants me to be his “beautiful little girl” and i want to be that for him but i’m physically and mentally unable to be that way. i feel so terribly about how and what i am that i’d rather just not be at all to stop the tearing between two sides, but that’d make me a disappointment as well.